i guess i'm trying to say i'm sorry, but it always turns out wrong

i'm not really. just happens to be the song on right now as i opened this.

and i've decided to abandon capital letters this blog. wahey.

me and apologising is weird anyway. i mean, i'll say sorry when something small, like, wow, i whacked you with my bag, sorry. but when it's something relatively big like, i dunno... trashing someones relationship? which i don't recall ever doing, yet can't think of a different example off the top of my head. anyways. if i do that, then the person doesn't talk to me, i kinda just... leave it a bit, then start talking to the person a bit again, joking around and shizz, never actually say sorry.

just noticed it. huh.

meh.

i'll get over it, they can stay pissed off if they want, i usually mean well. i think. never really sure actually. :D

it's awesome.

sometimes a bit weird, what with the whole 'everyone seems to care but me' thing, but psht to that. quite content.

wow, just ate tea. weirdly early actually. plain spaghetti with grated cheese. awesome.

trying to shift my eating patterns back to normal. have been eating way too much, haha. it's like the summer holidays backed my eating habits into a dark alley and fucked them raw. it's not been good. or pretty.

but hey ho, i'll get over it.

oh yeah, blah, being forced to go to study sessions sucks. i'm more likely to not study now i've been told to. spent the time reading mattxmello fanfiction. it's soooo gooooood.

have i ever mentioned how much i love mello? coz seriously. i do. he's awesome. really, really awesome. and i get the feeling that the people who'll read this already know. :tehe: oh well.

huuuurm. all i can really think of to say. work's still boring, but bearable. school's school. friends are good. other people stay away. family's mediocre.

yup. it's all pretty okay.

so yah.

bidibibi.